Coda Josh Grant

It was a cold, bleak day outside, so I lit the fire as soon as I had put the coffee on to boil, as soon as I had got home. I'd been up half the night, pissing around, having adventures, writing great stuff. I liked it. You know what four points does, I assume. With Nick on a school night, what’s more. He just dropped in to use my place as a smoking den, as he didn’t want to drive off his face. He was meeting someone’s husband, the partner for who had left the state leaving him ‘unprotected.’ “You heard her say that?” “Whatever that means?” “Her husband…” “If I have it here, it’s not hitting me until I get to the front door of the CBD club, after a short taxi ride from Lygon.” “Is that why you always stop in here?” “You never listen, Josh. How many times do I have to repeat the same story? YES!” “Okay, I heard you.” Jees, he seemed angsty. “How many times do I have to tell you, your house is the perfect distance from the CBD.” “Yeah, sure I’d heard you say that before, but I never r...

You know when they've got an arse so tasty you want to chow down all night... Cute twink in black jocks lying on his stomach smiling You know those muscled boys who give it up really easily, not a fight… Cut ripped torso lying down in black jocks writhing You know those boys who just say to you, keep sucking on it all right… Near naked young jock, bulging black jocks sighing You know those twinks who just have to take the biggest in sight… A gorgeous boy dripping from his hole that is no longer tight.

I've been working. I had a 6 month contract, a friend suggested me for the role and some how I got steamrollered into it. Well, not so much steamrollered into it, but it went from a guilty feeling that i should be working to slaving my arse off in a corporate law firm, seemingly just like that. OMG! It has been long hours and long days and some weekend work. It bought back all the reasons why I hate corporate law firms. The psychopaths in charge, the mountain of work, the mind numbing boredom, all the reasons why I stopped doing that kind of prostitution in the first place. Still, I said I'd do it for 6 months, that was the contract i signed, so I completed it. I don't know why, but when it comes to actually working I take it seriously. I do what I say I'm going to do, otherwise I should have never said I'd do it in the first place. I guess that's why I don't want to work all that much. Still, there were a few cute law clerks, in puppy lawyer boy suits...

Jumping the shark, I used to think that was a great expression. Shark head stepping stones. Once across the pond without stopping. Jumping the shark, some kind of thrill seeker aerobics. It's just a jump to the left, with the shark between your fee,ee,eet. It's just a jump to the right, the shark bites on tigh, ig, ig,ig,t. But if you are really lucky, and you juuump the shark. A girl would have the shark by the tail and a girl would have the shark by the snout, and they'd swing it around like elastics, and the girl in the middle would jump, jump, jump the shark. Jump, jump, jump, as the shark breaches the water in the pool. Jump, jump, jump, jump over the sharks open mouth, like a swan, or a deer. What? What do you mean the cow ran away with the spoon? Boo-Hoo.

I still sleep with Nigel sometimes. I know when it is coming, he calls and asks me what I'm up to, you know, just kind of nonchalantly. He says it's good for him for relieving the tension. He is the only guy I know who I can hold in my arms and kiss, he is really nice to kiss, and who can just can suddenly hold me very tight in his arms like he is never going to let go and cum all over me. It is really hot. Nigel's super power. I wish I could do that.

Nick and I went to a health resort in the country, Central Vic. It was Nick’s idea. Before we get chilled by winter. “If I hear one more person’s problems,” said Nick. “I might just kill them.” That is great coming from an HR manager, no, hang on, he’s now Director of People and Culture, at a city law firm. “Really, is that what they are calling it now.” “People and kulcha, darling, Cul…tooure. Very fancy isn’t it.” “Oh, it is just the perpetual side step that you guys have to make.” “Oh, don’t go on.” “Once personnel was exhausted, you stepped away from all the shit, and rebranded HR. Now those two letters are toxic in every corporate office, what, you are morphing into People and Culture, as if the disaster HR was, and the mess personnel was, had nothing to do with you guys, at, all.” “Teflon coated, baby,” said Nick. “We know what all the tricks are, because we invented them.” “And you still get it so horrible wrong.” “Mr Nick, why wasn’t I told, Russo, at your service,” said Nick. ...

This is it. There is nothing else after this. There is only this. This is our one shot, don't mess it up. You don't get another. No virgins. No heaven. No next life forever more. No, none of that. I stood upright, with my arm extended in the air like a super hero As it's over, everything is over, never to come again. Only what is coming, will come. The only thing you have control over is your positioning at this very moment. So, I stood like a super hero being in the moment. You can choose what you get. To an extent. And the best way is to be happy. Content. In a random world. Choose life. Choose happiness and everything else will take care of itself. I stood up right, tall and proud, being in the moment. “Whatcha doin’?” came Beth’s voice from somewhere behind me. “I’m being Captain Right Now, can’t you tell?” “Captain what?” “Right now. Captain Right now,” I said again. “Oh well, good job,” said Beth. “Point your fingers towards the sky.” “Will that help?” “It won’t hurt,...